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Lying in bed with my baby beside me, I feel her little body trembling under the covers. I love her so much, a deeper love than any other I have ever known. I am left confused by the fact that I leave this world behind, so that my child alone in it.
Dark as it seems, and perhaps caused by the death anniversary of my mother, I often thought of death and left in this mess of a planet to cry. This is a frightening world, where others, most of them live in relation totheir beliefs, no matter how unrealistic or distorted.
This week, surprisingly, has led many dark impression in my mind. Monday ', my daughter fell and hit her head on a corner so hard that it left a mark and bruise. Now I know this is like a little ouch, especially those that appear with two or more children, but I lost my whole family, no more disasters of pain in my head are numbered.
I slept that terrible night, I actually had a dream about my motherand she told me that my daughter was taken in for surgery of the spine by a compressed? I'm not even sure if this is a state, but I woke up in cold sweat and pain. E 'for me the dream, but to see and hear the news that rocked my soul rare.
Then on Tuesday, while I listen to the news on Sirius Fm (of course I listen to gay radio all day, I'm gay for goodness sake, is all I know!) I have crushed the cup in my hands polyester, resulting in a Diet Pepsi Leadexplode all over my new car (5 months). I mean, it went everywhere! Why, why was not paying attention and was completely on the fact that for two Marines, a gay man in the State of Georgia are not interested in applying sanctions, given that throwing a shot at someone looking at one side of the tracked vehicle "gay street" is not considered a hate crime. Really!
What will happen as a hate crime? Someone die? Because this child is unconscious and in my professionwhich is a very dangerous disease, and is not aggressive enough to act in the eye more like a hideous crime! Now, thanks to the Marines is a great place to pad my Diet Pepsi. I wonder if they occur to me the balls to me quite shocking to damage my car is considered a hate crime or aggressive in nature, because after all, these guys make me angry.
What if I started kicking and punching random people if I do not like to dohow I looked. When I found that getting men to me and asked me, and I tell them "I'm sorry, I'm gay, so you have those eyes plastered on her tits out." Did you hear? Often do not look at me still or "harass" I thought maybe I'm playing hard. What happens if I just punched unconscious looked at me! I see in the news "Angry Lesbian Straight Man in a proposed hate crime."
Or how about that 20/20 show, a segment that is not known"What would you do?" (I think that is what it means, as I have no tv and on youtube.) It was reported that about 40 states do not have the right of homosexuals. You're damn serious?
Why do not we tattoo with the logo that identifies permanent to us, we stick to specific areas in which we live together, and you can better control our numbers, and be sure to designate in society, where you can eat, sleep and shit then do not worry 't your style with our dirty ways? II mean, is not that what history has shown that only the minorities who are the minority.
The majority makes the rules and conditions and then everyone follows like stupid sheep well. Well, I'm not a sheep, and my child is not taken to be a sheep. Please, not a sheep, and also not to hide. There is no time for this because you may think that we as humans will never hurt them that way, but the news again, and you will see how little some people careabuse and other power can.
We must stay together as a nation LGBT, as one, not as separate entities working for their own selfish needs of judges and gods. No more we isolate ourselves or to hide, but to communicate and learn from each other as a community that is highly related to each other and together for a brighter future that is love.
I do not want my child to grow up in this world where we have men and women hurt each other because of who we are and love. Iwill not be ashamed or hide from their lives, because they can be hurt or rejected. Can you help?
He wants to hold my hand? He wants to hold my daughters hand, so that it is a country behind the fight against what is understood and needs? Want to connect with me today so that we can work together better tomorrow?
I'm not going anywhere ... waiting for you to make your move. I told you what I need.
Alex ~ The Guru Lesbian Karydi
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